I'm fat.
There, I said it. I'm FAAAAAAAAT
No matter how much people try and sugar coat it, there is about 30kgs on my frame that do not need to be there.
I look in the mirror and I see my mother.
I hate the person that my mother has become.
I hate that I am turning into her.
I hate how much work I have to put in to try and lose weight and hate her even more that she has given up and doesn't want to try.
I hate that my body doesn't want to work the way that I want it to.
I hate how much hate is in my body.
Maybe if I purge the hate, the rest will fall into place.
One can hope.
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I feel Im fat too babe!
ReplyDeleteDiff people feel fatness in diff ways.
I dont see my mother in the mirror, thank goodness, I've worked so hard to be so different then her. But I can understand the concept, because I can't get rid of her she is always there hurting me, depressing me, without knowing.
I just want to say, i love you, how you are, and how you see yourself, and how you want to see yourself. I will always be there.
Your my friendship never gone wrong, always truthful. Always respectful. Always beautiful